Hey everyone,
I'm in a horrible situation at home. I live with my ex and our 2 children. He is emotionally abusive. He doesn’t physically hit me, but there is also sexual abuse involved. Honestly this is so horrible every time I have to say it out loud. I’m too scared to say it “no” to him or on the occasions I do, he ignores me anyway.
I couldn’t tell you why I’m so afraid of him. I sit in my room all day because he won’t let me get a job. I hide from him until our kids are out of school and I go down and play happy families for show. I don’t take crap from anyone else, yet I let this man scream at me and I run off and cry. Why can’t I scream back at him?
Anyway, I have told my local council this when applying for housing/help to get out of this situation. They referred me to a domestic abuse team (who are the ones that helped me understand I’m going through abuse) but they had no space to help me. I have been referred from charity to charity, having to repeat everything I’m going through over and over again and none of them have spaces to help me leave. I went back to the council to plead for help again and they just told me they will send me back to the first domestic abuse team that I spoke to. Even citizens advice referred me to people I have already contacted. I feel completely lost. Everyone I have spoken to about this says that I absolutely need to get out of this situation, but I have no where to go.
I am devastated that refuges are full because that means so many people are going through this. I constantly worry I’ll be taking something from a woman that desperately needs it more than me. Has anyone been through this or have any advice for me to get some help?
Thanks for reading. This was mostly to get it off of my chest.