I'm 40 and a full time working single parent. My DS takes up pretty much all of my time outside of work. I don't have time to socialise much or go out, as my son is always with me. I suppose this makes work a massive part of my life, as there isn't much else going on.
I have worked in caring professions for two decades. I have spent my adult life in jobs that are stressful and hold a lot of responsibility. It is a fast paced area of work and the responsibility is obviously never ending. It can be quite restrictive and challenging. By nature, I am a natural caregiver; I have always been a person who puts other's needs before mine. I think this is why I initially went into this area of work.
As time is going on, I am becoming increasingly unhappy and frustrated within my role. I dream constantly about doing something more holistic or creative, pulling back some energy and saving it for myself. Something that brings me joy also, instead of coming home everyday feeling stressed and drained. There's a constant tapping in the back of my mind that something needs to change, that I can't carry on in a role that depletes me so much.
Times are tough for many of us at the moment, the news is full of gloom. My desire to find joy in life again is getting louder and louder. There is also a fear of stepping outside of my comfort zone and doing something I enjoy. I also think there may be a feeling of guilt. The life I'm living right now is really getting me down. My son brings joy everyday however, as work is such a big part of my life, am I wrong for thinking it's time for change? Has anyone else made a midlife career change? Does anyone relate to this feeling of utter depletion?