Exhausted and feel guilty for being off

[BlueOtter9]

I feel like I’m failing because my workplace has micromanaged the life out of me, my manager regularly makes me feel like I’m being chastised and let’s my subordinates copy them into all emails which makes me look so useless.

I’m a manager and working with multiple senior leaders and directors and have so many demands that none of my team see. They just think I’m crap. I’m very unwell today. Woken up with a horrific virus, banging headache.

I have a big meeting on Thursday with a very senior team member but I’m just not well enough. I’m just not physically able to do it. I’m also leaving but that’s not really why I’m not going in. I know I’m be berated either way. Whether I’m in or not.

It’s because my body is so fatigued it’s now ill and I’m not fighting back as easily as I normally would. Normally I’d be going for a run I can’t even do that today.

Do I force myself in for this meeting or do I just recover?

You are ill. Of course you don’t go in.

I’m so sorry you’re in a tough situation, but I think your reaction of such deep anxiety to being unable to go in due to illness, should tell you that your decision to leave is the right one.

Hope you feel better soon 💐

Thank you. I’m just so mentally drained. I was asked to offer a brief for a different meeting on Thursday. I emailed it to my manager and they said “I’ve already sorted it” again it just seems I’m useless to them no matter what I do. The presssure is forcing me to breaking point.