I work in a school, I’ve handed my notice in and I have a very very unkind manager. She micromanages me, speaks at me not to me, through gritted teeth. She’s part of the reason I had to go.
She Demands I do things with an unbelievably tight turn around. When I try and explain something she’ll say “just get it done” like I’m a piece of shit. The last straw came about the other day when a report needed to be done. No other dept has finished but I’m under so much scrutiny to get it done. I feel like I’m under a microscope, I do totally understand the importance of this. But no one helped or guided me in terms of how to do it. I’ve also been asked to work with someone very very senior, ceo level to get some support as they’ve been doing it for a long time prior to being upper leadership (I’m in a leadership role too just middle not senior) this person that’s been drafted in is cold with me, no emotional awareness at all, and at times condescending in mannerism. I haven’t done a few things before so I just need that help but I don’t want to be made to feel stupid or under a microscope.
it’s more so the untenable environment, I step in and feel drained. My stomach’s in knots, I’m anxious walking in, I feel an overwhelming sense of dread and disassociate on my drive in. I feel like a robot. Doctor has prescribed propanalol for now. I seem to get waves of nasty headaches and also struggle with getting up on time now. Things are just too overwhelming. Working with too very difficult people at the start and end of the week is draining me.
What do I do? Im scared of having time off. They’ll think im doing it on purpose as it’s been when the meetings occur but thats also when my anxiety spikes ans my body responds by making me feel ill. I feel worried to get signed off as I let the kids down then. What do I do?