Virtual hug(s) incoming!!! Way past those days but oh we never forget! Just remember, it is totally ok to have some good sobs, self pity, and moments of 'oh my god I can't do this'. You can. You will.
You are well. Baby is well. Your body has been through a siege and the estrogen is crashing down. With two of mine, I had what I called baby blues brought on by so much love, exhaustion, and all of the things. With my second of three babies, the tears were more than baby blues and I went on to develop a rather bone-crushing PND for several months. Those babies are grown up now. We all made it through! We're all here. Now I just have to not cry when I look at the old thing staring back at me in the mirror... chin hairs, jowls, marionette lines down to my knees. Menopause is a whole other saga!
Feel safe in knowing when to tell yourself, "Wait a minute. I am really not coping and I need more support," and book in to see your GP (you can always bring it up at the post natal check but this is a few weeks away so, ring sooner if you're really not coping).
Can you catch a good solid few hours of sleep? Perhaps, for example, your partner can agree to do an all nighter this Friday and you can sleep in a separate room for maybe 7 hours straight... just a straight stretch of uninterrupted sleep will give you some ammo to get through a few tough nights. It's only a suggestion. But I found that solid hours of uninterrupted sleep got me back up and running again.
Hugs!!! Super hugs.
And yes, it was with my second that I had my PND. I think the leap was a little tougher than I'd anticipated plus there was an 8 year gap since my first. The jump from two to three was smooth as glass.
Just keep a weather eye on your mood. Know when to ask for a rope throw from the GP. Above all, make sure YOU are making time for yourself to stop and breathe, get some uninterrupted shuteye, food, cups of tea, TLC, etc. Make sure your partner is absolutely looking after you. You've done all the heavy lifting here. 💝