Working hard and going above and beyond in this country is often punished with more work to make up for the slackers. And there is a real divide, with a handful of people often carrying the majority of the work. I used to be one of them, but I am slowly realising it does me no favours.
So over the past year, I made up my mind to consciously do less. I didn't work all hours God sent me. I only took on extra work that would improve my chances of promotion (such as a professional course paid for by my employer). I minuted my hours worked and compared them to the hours I had been given and asked to be released from some of my day to day duties to get the extra bit I'd been directed to done.
I took my sick days (within reason) when the benefit of being present at work was outweighed by the sinking feeling in my gut at the realisation that my work being presented to large audiences when I wasn't at my best was doing more damage in the long run.
I reused older work to supplement my current work without checking whether it was an ideal fit, but knowing it would do the job well enough. I put everything I asked others to do in writing, sent one reminder and let my boss deal with those who didn't complete it.
Some tasks which had little benefit compared to the work they took got quietly dropped altogether.
And my employer? If they've noticed, they haven't mentioned it. If they haven't, then what was the point all along. They didn't thank me for the extra work done; they simply piled more on top, because Haruka would get it done. Any active mention of me struggling would get ignored.
My employer still takes the piss with what they want vs what they pay, or the time they give us to complete our work. But now I don't put as much in.
I'm better off for it. I resent my job less, resent other people less, and have stopped giving too much of a toss about the outcome, knowing I'm still performing better than many others in my position. I invest more time in my wellbeing, my relationship and my family. Maybe I'm getting old. But I will no longer allow my mental health and my relationships to suffer for an employer who'd replace me in a heartbeat when I'm gone.