Its been 4 months since my husband left me .
Some days are good but im now on night 6 with disrupted sleep , i feel like a cant cope with life anymore . I spent 4 months trying to get him to realise he has an alcohol problem and years before that ( hes now finally sober ) .
My children want him home , my eldest acts like shes unbotherd but i dont believe that and my youngest seems to think he will come home when hes better ,which broke me .
I asked him if he really wants me to find someone else and he said he replied he wants me to be happy.
But ive spent my entire life with him
Ive lost my friend my family member and i feel like i ment nothing to him , and i cant stop grieving .
I put on an act and pretend im happy but im dying inside , perhaps this is the lack of sleep making me more vunerable to emotions .
The grief has also given me more and more grey hairs , i want the pain to stop