I can’t do another year

[icantfaceanotheryear]

Apparently I’m depressed (GP). Consultant at my work said I should push for a referral to crisis team and ask for a mood stabiliser, I’m already on 2 antidepressants.

I can’t face the thought of another year.

I should be happy, I have a fairly decent if extremely stressful job (I work in inpatient mental health) and I own my house.

But I am alone, I’m 35 this year and have never been in a relationship and little chance of being a mum now.

I haven’t got really good friends out of work.

I’m dreading the thought of new year and keep thinking ‘why am I not happy yet’

Didn't want to read and run. Can you pay to see a counsellor, if you're in an ok place financially, to talk it through and reframe what you are looking for in life? It'd be worth it.

Is being a mum your dream? I'd get the money for a sperm donor if so.

Don't give up!

Things can change on the turn of a sixpence!

I felt like you last year and decided 2025 was the year I was going to not just survive, but thrive!

It's been a great year and about two months ago I realised for the first time in almost a decade I am now quite happy and get moments of real joy.

How did I change? I came up with two things I wanted to do each month. Some of them I've kept going with, some, once was enough. These ranged from health, hobbies, people, holidays, boundaries, work etc.. Lots of small changes that have added up into a much happier life.

I think just taking charge of my life, accepting it was as it was and appreciating all the many parts I am fortunate in and taking time to feel pleasure about those helped.

(PS I second counselling and promising yourself you will have a baby on your own if need be)