3rd child struggling regret

[L58537]

I need to be honest: I am struggling with our third child more than I ever expected. I honestly feel a sense of regret that scares me. With a 14-year-old, a 5-year-old, and the baby, I feel like I am drowning. This first year has been the hardest by far.
I feel completely disconnected from the baby, not like I did with the first two, and I’m an emotional wreck. It feels like it’s getting worse, not better. Balancing the school runs, work, being a wife, and managing the family is too much strain. I feel like giving up and I keep wondering what the point is. I know this can’t be 'normal,' but I hate everything right now and I don’t know what to do

Dear L58,

sending you lots of support FWIW!
I had a huge age gap between my two and at times it feels like it’s never going to end.

Remember the physical and emotional depletion you are feeling lasts a long time after the birth. Feeling well and strong is almost impossible when you’re juggling this much.

Do seek support if you can from wherever you feel is most appropriate. What you are feeling is not rare and it will certainly pass. Our feelings are important and real but they are certainly not permanent.

I would wish that you take shortcuts this month to give yourself time to recover and feel strong again.