I have this issue where for example I can cook a meal or bake a cake and if I'm alone or with my DH eating it it can taste delicious and lovely but the minute someone else is there to eat my food or baking it all turns to tasteless rocks in my mouth all I can detect is how bad it is. I've even had the experience of making something for people coming over, eating it with them literally finding it to be very bad, tasteless etc but then if I eat some later after they are gone it suddenly tastes good. I will ask my DH if it has got better and he'll say no it's just the same now as it was earlier. To be clear, people tell me I'm a good cook and baker, my husband says my food is better than most restaurants. Objectively I know my food is good but subjectively in that moment I can't experience that, I need to be alone or just with DH.
It isn't just food it's pretty much everything, when its just me on my own I might marvel at my latest knitting project and how well I've done but then if someone else sees it will suddenly look like shit to me, ugly, it can literally look different to me the colours will change and so on. Any art work I do suffers the same fate, the minute I show anything to anyone it all turns to shit. My appearance suffers a similar fate especially if I try to look nice or wear make up it has the opposite effect on my self image and I prefer myself having made no effort at all.
Does anyone else get this and if so what the hell is it?