OK I hope this will be somewhat coherent and not too jumbled like my thoughts!
Always thought we were one and done. For a number of reasons really. More time, money and head space for one. I wondered about my ability to cope with more than one and my patience - this despite a career working with children and actually quite passionate about child development and care.
Also, my husband while lovely and supportive can be lazy and selfish. I know that sounds harsh and I'm obviously far from perfect myself, just don't think there's a point in sugar coating it.
So we have one amazing 5 year old daughter whom we absolutely adore. Life is good and we have the things we want (time, some disposable money, etc).
However! Now I'm starting to think its the small age gap that I wouldn't have been able to cope with. I know I'd have struggled massively with that. No way! Not for me.
But now that our daughter is older I suppose I'm wondering would it in fact be easier now.
I don't have long to decide as I'm 38 although my husband is a couple of years younger. He doesnt particularly want a second child which I know is pretty much the answer, however, if it was extremely important to me I think he would.
My legitimate worries are he won't pull his weight and there'll be serious resentment which effects us all, including of course our daughter. She does ask for a sibling every now and then but I wouldn't base bringing a child into the world just based on that. I think she'd be a fantastic big sister though, if possibly a little jealous although I hope I would deal with that well.
Sorry that was long. Would really appreciate the advice or if anyone was in my shoes. Just worried I'll regret not having a second in a few short years when its too late. Or what if I regretted having a second?!