Hi all, I’m seriously struggling and don’t know where to turn. Today was the first day my daughter met her father in over 7 years, he sexually assaulted me, raped me, and physically assaulted me along with planning on killing me (recording proving it). Today my daughter came out all happy as he brought her presents and made out like he was the best thing in the world. I am aware that my emotions have got the better of me and I can’t cope with felling completely lost and alone. Is this a normal feeling after a first contact after so long. Am I acting like a crazy mum for feeling so broken? I am at a loss and feel like I can’t cope anymore, I feel like the most pathetic mother in the world. I mean should I just be happy that my daughter got on with her biological father after all this time… I feel so alone and pathetic right now for feeling like I have failed my child.