My Boss Makes Me Feel Like A School Leaver….

[Moaning5]

I’ve been in this job for 1 year. It’s a professional job (finance) that I’ve been doing for 20+ years.
I’m qualified (chartered) and experienced, but this is a different industry from previous roles, plus it’s back to private sector (spent a few years in public).

Im the first one to say I don’t know something and hold my hands up to an error (honestly I am !), but he’s basically had a rant at me that I’m missing huge chunks of basic knowledge 😭
There’s processes and spreadsheets that I’ve only started working on this month that I’m basically teaching myself on (he’s very busy), and it’s not gone that well, but I feel like I’ve nailed it by thrr egg deadline.
I don’t learn very well unless I’m actually doing it myself, so I can’t really blame anyone for not teaching me 🙈

Im tired and emotionally and fed up.
Last week he was congratulating me on winning Employee of the Month (nominated and decided by others outside finance thank goodness), and today he’s making me feel like I’ve just left school.

Talk some sense into me before I quit ☹️

It should get better as you get more used to things. Being new is always hard. It can be a bit embarrassing when you make mistakes. But all new people make mistakes. I work in Finance. I'd expect it to take months or even years to get someone up to speed. Give it more time. Unless of course you think he's too awful to work with.

Ahh thanks for replying @Barryana

It’s when he says have you completed x process, or y spreadsheet which I’ve never heard of before - and it looks so complicated, and I ask him for guidance and he makes it harder !
Once I’ve actually had time to work through it and make the inevitable mistake it’s actually ok, but he makes me feel so useless 🙈

It doesn’t help when I see how respectful and encouraging other teams are who foster learning cultures !
He makes me scared to ask him anything ☹️

He doesn't sound very helpful. It's a shame there's nobody else to ask. It took me years to get used to our spreadsheets. I'm a slow learner. But you get to a point where you are valued. As long as you look like you're trying and you care about getting it right, you should be ok.

A year in it sounds like he’s frustrated with you not being up to speed

Is it something like it’s not the spreadsheets themselves it’s the lack of knowledge and skills about the basic workings of excel
so teaching you spreadsheets is harder than it needs to be because you lack the basics in excel

It’s the complete lack of training and the fact I need to do a job myself to learn it.
Now he’s asking me to do more complex stuff he just assumes I’d know what he wants, when I’ve literally never been shown.

He says as I’m senior I should already know and I see where he’s coming from but it makes me feel useless.

Everyone including him has been in the team years and years, and when they’ve shown me stuff it’s all very rushed because they know it all inside out.
I trained 4 people Monday and took things really slow and provided handouts, slide decks, and told them to contact me anytime- I accept they will make mistakes as they’re learning. I’m not allowed apparently.