Turning off the food talk in my brain - vulnerable post.

[LookAtThatMartin]

Hello. As long as I can recall, food has rules my life. When I was a small child, in the mid 60’s, I was hospitalised for 13 months. This was before parents were allowed to stay so I was alone, 95% of the time.
Meals were rushed so I had to eat quickly. I hid food for later and this has followed me all my life.
Food is the first thought in my head and stays in there all day.

I dont binge. I am overweight but scared to visit my doctor for advice - in 2018 I went, had blood tests etc and I was diagnosed with cancer and a heart condition called Left Bundle Branch Block.

I have a huge fear of going to the doctors because of this.

All I want it to stop thinking about food. The noise is deafening and I don’t know how to stop it.

I’ve looked into Mounjaro but would want/need to consult my Dr regarding the heard condition so that’s stopping me. I can afford it, but would welcome any constructive thoughts regarding the noise.

Many thanks 🙏🏻

Therapy could be really helpful for you to address this. You've already identified a cause, you need to work through the emotional impact

But aside from that, significantly increasing how much fibre and protein you eat at breakfast could help. (increase the fiber slowly so you don't get bloating and discomfort). And don't feel that you can only eat 'breakfast food' for breakfast.

I would suggest a therapist who specialises in eating disorders, they may also help with your health anxiety.

Regarding your heart issue, losing weight may be beneficial to your cardio vascular system. Please speak to your doctor, it is far better to be proactive healthwise, than reactive.

I would read

• ultra processed people

And -.why we eat too much

Honestly I think ultra processed food is at the heart of a lot of food noise. These books will also take away your shame and mean that you look for a knowledgeable and up to date doctor who won't judge you

I'm on Mounjaro and it stopped the food noise immediately. It's like I'm free for the first time in my life.
I know you're scared of the doctor, so maybe there are clinics you could go to just for Mounjaro advice? (I'm not in UK so not sure). I really would recommend you try it.