I have found a rather large, hard lump behind my jaw just under my ear. I've not maybe paid it much attention as I have TMJ disorder and my jaw is always problematic. I went to see the practice nurse about it today and she took bloods and said is going to refer me to some neck lump clinic. I am sooo worried it's cancer. My PIL is dying from cancer and one of my best friends died from cancer 2 years ago at just 36. I don't want to talk about my worries with DH as he is already dealing with his PIL and has a lot of emotions going on. I will have to tell him that the nurse is going to refer me and it's going to stress him out loads. He worries about me so much and I dont know how to cope keeping this inside, I dont want to really tell anyone else as all my friends have young kids too and are busy with all the stuff in their lives. I want to cry.