I just need to get this off my chest as I have been carrying the load for a few years now and recent news has really caused it to come to the surface.
My son is 16. While pregnant, they found that he had water on his kidneys. They expected it to naturally resolve (which it did) but put him on preventative antibiotics on the day of his birth and stated that he needed to take them for the first year of his life.
At 5 months, I questioned whether he needed them and was told that they were only preventative and we could stop them and just wait to see if he ends up with an infection.
As a child, DS had extreme language barriers which exist to this day. He is unable to pronounce words correctly or fully and cannot spell. He really struggled with school and reading although he was a good and willing student. As he grew older, he became prone to verbally abusive outbursts. This has led to a breakdown in his relationship with his siblings.
Over the years, we have had various support and he has been assessed for various needs but he has never met the full criteria for anything.
There is now research that suggests that antibiotic use in the first year is linked to neurological development particularly language and behaviour.
I feel so guilty, I should have questioned it from the start. He has started opening up more about the bullying he experienced and how difficult he finds everything and I feel so angry at myself for not realising.
I know acceptance is key here. I have never told him of my suspicions as I am not sure what good it would do. I just really needed to get it off my chest.