Just need to vent

[LilacPomPom]

I just need a vent as the last couple of days have just been so stressful and as much as I love my DP and Mum, they don’t quite understand everything so they’re as supportive as they can be

Monday, took LO (16 mo) to GP as ongoing RSV, given an inhaler and it’s just a battle to even get near him at the moment as he thinks we’re probably going to just upset him

I’m a midwife, I worked all day Tuesday and by 8:30 in the morning, I accidentally got a solution in my eye which meant my colleague was rinsing it out over the sink and then not long after I identified a cord prolapse (hefty emergency) so spent most of my morning with my forearm in this poor lady and wherever she went, I went (with my arm in place) until they put her to sleep for a C-section.

Wednesday rolls around, not a bad day overall apart from the fact that 2 hours before my night shift, my partner hurt his thumb on one of the prongs on our gas hob (under the nail, down to the nail bed) and he passed out from the sudden pain but forgot he had chewing gum in his mouth so I end up coming into the lounge to find him unconscious but choking so then managed to wake him up and dislodge the gum

I then went to work and I’ve come home this morning and I just feel so deflated and emotionally withdrawn. Work is work and in the grand scheme of things, it’s part of my job but it isn’t pleasant (albeit there was an amazing outcome and I’m chuffed that the baby was absolutely fine!) but the choking thing has really struck me and I can’t stop reliving it

sorry for the rant! Hope everyone has a good Thursday 😊❤️

Oh my goodness OP.

You are doing such an amazing job as mother to your toddler and in your full on job as a midwife. And having to deal with family drama. I'm full of admiration for you.

No wonder you are stressed though. Do you ever get any time for you.?

Ah OP, that’s a lot to cope within the last couple of days. But all’s well that ends well. Treat yourself to a cuppa and some cake at the next available opportunity. Try not to relive the episode with your DP over and over, you acted quickly and he’s fine! Be kind to yourself…..💐x

You need a glass of wine and a day off, ASAP! Hope LO is feeling better soon and you manage to get some time to yourself. Really glad the baby ended up being fine

Oh lovely that sounds so traumatic seeing your partner like that, the fact that you say you keep reliving it also sounds like a trauma response. No wonder you’re struggling!
take a breath and maybe look into some extra support like therapy xx

Thanks everyone for the kind responses! To be honest, I’ve just finished a long course of therapy for PPD/PPA so I’m no stranger to a bit of counselling.

I’m telling you now I’m definitely having a glass of something this evening now I’ve slept! I’ve also got a week of annual leave next week so hoping the break will allow me to recoup x

OP you did really well, both and home and at work. I admire your skills……but having read the description of Tuesday’s work, I never ever ever want to become a midwife!

Ahh, no! It’s such an amazing job and the situation is quite rare. It’s better than that, I promise!