Can you help me reframe this?? I know IABU and to blame for this situation. It's the final day of our week long holiday in a beautiful villa in the Med. One of the nicest places we've ever stayed. I planned carefully to find somewhere really close to beaches, restaurants, bars etc. Obviously cost a lot. But I am feeling so down. I feel like, as ever, we've wasted this time away. We have done almost nothing - the days have drifted, it's been well past lunchtime before everyone (2 teens, DH and I) have even all been up. No one ever makes a plan for anything and I'm sick of always being the one to say "let's do something".
I'm even more annoyed at myself for not just getting on and doing stuff myself. Even just getting up and wandering to the bakery for bread and pastries. I could have done that or taken myself to the beach or a cafe.
DH and one teen had a row one night, and the other teen was upset about it. I've been left feeling a bit on edge since, and annoyed with DH as it happened over an issue he's got form for - which is a shame as he and I were getting on much better after a tricky time recently.
I'm also annoyed with myself as I knew a week wouldn't be long enough so since day 4 I've had going home hanging over my head and felt like the time was slipping away but unable to make myself do anything about it.
We managed a short trip out yesterday afternoon which was good and everyone had a lovely time, but that almost makes it worse knowing we could have done more.
Now I have to go and pack to come home to what looks like a cold rainy UK!
Sorry - it's a spoilt pity party. I know I'm very lucky to be here full stop.