I am so god damn sick of everything and everyone - work and family

[Pinklittlebaby]

So fucking god damn sick.

My worked needed me to study some modules to become certified and this is something that I would have liked normally.

I found the past few months unbelievablely stressful. In that I am hardly allowed time to apply myself to what I have to do. The stress comes from every single fucking angle. It's from work and from my family.

My work has been great at providing me with blocks of time in work to give to this and I do appreciate that however this has also been mixed with somewhat of a heavy schedule too. Like in July I worked a normal week Monday to Friday, then I was expected to move into work on a Saturday and work live in for a while week. Until the following week. So that was literally three weeks back to back with hardly a day off.

When I do get time off I have to throw myself into college work and assignments. I missed my deadline last week and I had to get an extension. I have the bulk of the work done but there is still more to do. My tutor provided feedback in one of my assignments and I needed more information for a few of the answers.

At this stage it's just a lot of reviewing and editing and adding information.

Whenever I do try and get work done in assignments, I am lucky if I can work on a paragraph or two. This doesn't work for me. I need a block of time to get stuff done. Not a half an hour here or there. Then there are times I have to leave my work uncompleted for another day. Even mid sentence. It's so hard to find my way when I go back to it again.

All I need is one fucking day to get this shit done and finished. Just one fucking day but I am not allowed that. It's from every angle. It's work and family too.

Looks like I will be in work for the weekend and also another late night tonight which I wasn't expecting.

Then there is my family who are in holiday mode and want to unleash their children into me.

I haven't had a day off since June. Work did give me some days off still not great and then any time I do get off I have to throw my head into books and my computer. Then there is family who seems to think my computer and table are toys for their children.

I am just so so so so so fucking god damn sick of all of this. All is need is one fucking day to be allowed to sit down and apply myself and complete the work that I have to do. But I am not allowed.

I am so fucking exhausted.

Do you have any leave you can take? If not you could have noravirus/upset stomach/whatever which is going to last for a few days. Then book yourself into the Holiday Inn (or equivalent) for a couple of nights and get away from your family and finish your college work. This is what I would do to clear the decks.

Hopefully I will get this crap done. I am soaring some sick days to fuck off over to Ibiza or somewhere and drink the place dry. As soon as I have the assignments and work submitted - I will be taking a sick week.

If you’re already in the mindset that you can take a sick week at the time it suits you, do it now and get your work done.

You’re saying you’re not allowed one day, but you are entitled to leave. If you need it, use it.

Hold on, who are these family members who are dumping their kids on you and giving them access to your computer? Put a stop to that, and make it a firm boundary. At the very least, change your computer password and tell them they have to go and do something else. Tell the parents you're working more than full time and doing a demanding course at the same time, so you're not available for free childcare.
If you don't stop people taking advantage of you, you really will get ill. You're obviously severely stressed already.