Birthday anxiety

[Rifalo]

So in the next few weeks I am having a milestone birthday
To give you all the background..... I have a terminally ill child. No family to help, it is just myself DH and our older children (I hate this life for them)
We lost so many friends over the last few years because they simply don't know how to handle our situation. Which I understand. It hurts but I get it.
This milestone birthday is an age my child will not reach, so I don't want to party it up, but at the same time i'm also very aware if I did throw a party hardly anybody would come so what's the point. Just feeling a bit sorry for myself.

Ah OP that is very hard. Why don’t you do something really nice with your own wee family. Big birthday parties are over rated in my opinion. I had one for my 40th and def won’t be having one again.

I don't know if your poorly child is able to leave the house and if this is practical but if your near a canal could you hire a barge for the day and take nice food maybe stop at pub. Sorry if this is way off the mark and not practical.

I hope you have a nice birthday but understand why it's bitter sweet for you.