On holiday but never felt so alone.

[Lushers]

im a single mum. 3 DS’s. 2 adult ( 21, 18) one teenager. Took them away to all inclusive resort in the med. I’m struggling such a lot. Feel so alone. It’s such a lively resort. Yet I feel utterly alone. Surrounded by families and couples.
I hate it and myself. There I said it.
not sure what im looking for on here but I’ve got no one else to share these feelings with.

Oh gosh I'm so sorry that sounds really rough :( are the children busy off doing their own thing? Eek I don't know what you can do don't want to suggest shitty twee things like 'enjoy the peace' when you feel how you feel. How about listen to a very distracting podcast to take your mind off it would that help at all :/ how long do you have left ?

Your children are very lucky to have you!!

Try and look at it from a different perspective.

You're not here to have a super social fun time.

Let the mini adults do their own thing

Enjoy the peace and solitude.

There is something empowering about being content in your own company. Try it out. You may find you enjoy it.

Oh love. I do the same with my two, similar ages.

There was one year where we were on the transfer bus behind this really lovely young family and it suddenly hit me so hard that we’d never had that with their dad.

I would sit and have a cocktail with you if I were there. Have a virtual handhold. It’s just a sad moment. It will pass

Wow, as a single mum you’ve been able to treat 3 adults to an AL holiday? That’s pretty amazing and you should feel proud

You've raised three great kids and you're able to give them a fantastic holiday. You should be proud of yourself

Thank you for replying. ❤️I’m ok in the day. It’s the evenings I find hard when they go back to their apartment and I’m alone. I have a good book and stuff to do. But I feel I have so much life in me that it’s just passing me by. Idk.

You are all so kind . most of the time I’m sooo fine with my own company. At home .
but on holiday it’s just magnified?
thanks for the virtual hand holds x
it will pass….. ❤️

I admire you so much.
i took my boys away the year their dad left, they were 7 and 12. It was hard work and like you i looked around and saw families/couples.
But I do look back at that time and think how strong I must have been - didn’t feel it at the time.
What are your boys doing? Can you join them? Will you all eat together?
how much longer of your holiday do you have?

For sure, holidays are the hardest time to be single, especially if you’re on a ‘family’ type holiday but they’re all old enough to amuse themselves. Do they not invite you to join them in the evening at all, or are they off clubbing/whatever, that doesn’t appeal to you?

We have dinner together and play games after. Table tennis / chess /
uno… but they want to retreat to their rooms after which is fine. It’s just the lack of adult conversation!
I had the most erotic Turkish massage my a young Turkish man at the spa the other day and I was sooooo turned on!! Just being near a man :)
i also seriously need some sex too! That’s not helping ! 🤣 I’ve booked him again tomorrow at the spa 🤣

They don’t want to stay out with me and go the bar/entertainment. I feel a right lemon at the bar dancing 😇

Thank you for this. And for getting it.
i am strong most of the time but …. You know how it is. I’m done with being strong :)

Thank you :))) this means so much to me

Get a few drinks down you and if there's some activity you can do in the evening, get yourself out there!

I am a lone parent too and the loneliness can be really heightened during high days and holidays. Being a single parent when they are small is so intense but when they, quite rightly, become more independent it makes the hole in our lives, the one for a nuclear family, even more apparent.

You have done a wonderful job with them as a PP said, if you are able to give them holidays. I can only manage a caravan/Premier Inn breaks. Just keep going, you aren’t on your own in this feeling.