I just wanted to post something happy here, I done this when I got married (with pics) and it seemed to bring lots of joy to people here so wanted to share some happy news again!! But it does come with a sad story.. this is going to be long!
Me and my now husband decided we wanted to have a baby so started TTC and got pregnant within the first month - we was overjoyed, sadly less than 2 weeks later (November 2022) I began bleeding and was told it was a chemical pregnancy which at that point I didn’t even know miscarriages really happened often let alone to me, we were devastated. We found out again I was pregnant in April 2023, I was happy but cautious, I began to get sick and took it as a good sign, we went for an early private scan and saw our baby at 8 weeks like a jelly bean and heart beating! We came out of that appointment flying! 4 weeks went by and I was in work when I started bleeding lightly, I called the midwife who booked me for a scan Monday (it was Saturday) but I couldn’t wait so booked a private scan for the Sunday - sadly the confirmed our baby died at 8 weeks and 3 days, just 3 days after we had our scan. They told us this is called a missed miscarriage (again, what?!) and I was so angry my body didn’t know my baby had died, I miscarried naturally that night on my bathroom floor with my husband for around 8 hours and on my birthday 😩 we found out I was pregnant again in August 2023, and we was due to get married the October and I’d bought my dress so was planning on changing it as I’d probably be bloated by then I thought. We was booked in for a scan at 6 weeks and they saw a sac but no baby, they said it’s normal because of how early I am and that everything looked great and booked me to come back a week later, we tried not to think about it to much but a week went by and sadly at the scan it was confirmed a baby never grew which is what they call a blighted ovum (again, how is this happening to me?!!) i went into hospital that weekend to have medication to help pass the pregnancy. We had a very happy wedding in October, then found out in December I was pregnant again 2 days before Christmas! We just felt utter dread… we got through Christmas and we had a scan booked for the first week of January (2024) but I started bleeding the day before the scan and obviously I knew again I was miscarrying. Devastated doesn’t even cut it - but mainly numb. I had to have a few weeks off work to gather myself. We decided to stop tracking and trying and try and enjoy life without TTC. June 2024 rolls around, we wasn’t tracking but a close friend told me she was pregnant and I was crying to my husband saying when will it be my turn, I realised my period was due that day so I did a test and it was positive!!! We thought, oh god. We are going to lose another baby. I don’t know how we got through those weeks! We were under the miscarriage clinic at this point being closely monitored! We had a scan at 6 weeks which showed us our baby and we tried not to get to excited because we know we lost a baby after 8 weeks before, but we had a scan at 10 weeks, 12, 14, 18, 20.. and many more and our baby was thriving. We couldn’t believe it, we started to get excited!!! Well our miracle baby boy was born January 31st 2025, 5 weeks early via emergency c section. He is now 6 and a half months old and a complete and utter joy, I never ever thought I’d be a mummy, or see my husband be a daddy, but we are. If anyone is going through loss or infertility - you are not alone and I’m so sorry, there is hope and happiness on the other side of it all. The road is long and scary but it will all be worth it when your baby is placed in your arms. Please, never give up hope and know it’s not your fault or anything you did ❤️
I’ve just added some pics of our family, I post a lot online about our story on TikTok, Facebook so I don’t mind posting pictures! He really is the happiest little thing! Xxx Thank you if you read this far xx