We can’t have children. Maybe ivf at some point would work but right now cancer treatment is top priority. I usually feel ok with it. However we’re on holiday in France with all of my OH’s lovely family; including our nephews (3&1). Tonight DH and I felt a bit tired so we said we’d stop in whilst everyone else goes out for tea. We put the boys to bed and it wasn’t difficult. 3 yr old wakes up and asks for a drink, DH got up to sort him out. I hear him say thank you in such a sweet little voice, and it just broke me.
my husband is an identical twin and our older nephew can’t quite get his head around it so calls DH Uncle Daddy suppose decent logic when you have a man who looks exactly like your dad who everyone is saying is uncle not Daddy.
our nephews are cut and paste versions of my husband and his brother when they were little. I will get over myself because our children may have looked like me but it’s really really hard to see them sometimes? It’s just been a hard day all round with cancer treatment side effects and the reality that at 34 with another 18 months of cancer treatment even if we have IVF I will be (earliest) 36 and who know if it will even work.