Im ok in my own family life bubble.i can do the things that are needed to be done for basic living.
But I also feel scared of everything. Im OK ish when im talking to someone I know on a 121 . But if someone else comes along I feel out of place and I put a barrier up even if I know them. If its a person I know of such as the parent of one of my child's friend and they are inviting a child to a party I feel so awkward and odd. When I was working and it was a group of people I used to feel all churned up and awful inside and I felt really scared. Judt thinking about it feels horrible. I don't have friends because a avoid it.
Autism did go through my head. But I don't know if im being silly. One of my ds does have Autism.
I did think about contacting my GP but then I feel scared to do it. And I will automatically cover up everything I feel. And Im worried about their face expression and looking at me as if to say stay talking rubbish. Or telling me theres nothing wrong with me but they wont see it because I will automatically cover it up. But also it could be there is nothing wrong.