Going on holiday in an hour .. and I couldn't give a rats arse about it

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Going with friends to Barcelona. We go away every year, same group. This year I really cannot be bothered. I usually LOVE going away. I can't be arsed to go through the motions of the journey. Can't be arsed to be cheery. All the ladies are excitingly posting away on the group chat tonight, but I've not posted anything. I'd rather spend the time in bed asleep tbh. God, I'm going to be a miserable bore on holiday. I ache to get up, I ache to sit down. I'm tired all the time. I have no energy. I'm 51 and peri. We're all in our 50s. I feel about 151. The others are all as energetic as possible. I feel like a miserable slump. How am I going to last out for 5 days of being sociable/smiley/appearing interested when I just want to curl up and sleep 24/7.
They are lovely ladies but I'm a peri mess

By the evening of day 2, you'll have relaxed and will be able to enjoy yourself.

Just let others do the talking!

As lovely as a holiday is, the process of getting ready to go can feel like another chore to get through on top of all the other every day things you need to do. There's an endless bloody list of stuff to do. It's draining. Peri makes it even more draining than usual.

I bet once you get there and start to relax, you'll get into it and enjoy yourself

I hope you’ve changed some of the details or it might be awkward if one of your friends read this! I bet it all feels better once you meet your friends and start the holiday. If you need a bit of downtown then just tell them. Maybe you could miss the odd afternoon on your own and spend the time reading and resting and meet up in the evening. Don’t let them think you are being moody or difficult as that would be horrible for everyone including you. Will they have noticed that you aren’t posting on the group chat?

If you really don’t fancy going then cancel. Just lie and say you are ill.