I’m early 30s and have been going through a long, shitty bad patch.
it started in my late 20s when I was in a high pressure role for several years which culminated in me being bullied out of it. I then did something different for a little while but the work was different and stressful. I’m now in a new role and find a couple of the people to be very rude. The work is interesting and stimulating. I really try hard to be friendly, accommodating and do my best so it feels like a kick in the teeth when I’m met with hostility.
against this, I broke up from my long term partner a little while back. My decision as I found him immature and emotionally abusive - the tracks were starting to show after a few years and was pushing for marriage and children. I did not want my children to have him as a father. I distracted myself after the break up by going out with friends all of the me and rented a nice room in a nice part of my city while I got my act together. My flatnate was friendly at first but then started acting in an incredibly petty manner - you haven’t loaded the dishwasher correctly etc.
there have also been some horrible wider family tragedies to deal with amongst this. I am not the principal person affected but they were tragic and heartbreaking and I love the people who were impacted by them - and the people who died.
i don’t know if im just feeling sorry for myself and self indulgent but its shit. I do have an amazing circle of friends and a nice family who have helped with things so I’m grateful for that. My job pays well too and I live in a decent place. I just feel broken and exhausted by everything else.
please can someone wish for an improvement in fortunes for me and my loved ones?