What is it like to be with your true love?

[Onceup0natime]

I met the father of my children at 19. After most of my time as a teen spent with an eating disorder/depressed, when I was better and out socialising I just felt nice that someone kind of wanted me.

Flash forward many years. 2 kids under 4, i did have a niggling feeling he wasnt the one but I wanted it to work so much and I still in my heart do. I want a lovely happy family and a cosy home. Maybe we've hit a bump in the road and maybe I just see people's highlight reels and think thats all of their relationship.

But he just seems to dislike me now. Just always says im a nag, i do his head in etc. Weeks ago we were out for dinner with a group of friends. One lady got her order done not as she asked and goes oh ill leave it its fine, her partner steps in and politely asks the waiter could she have the correct food. And i thought to myself- my DH wouldnt care and wouldnt even think to do that little gesture

So im just wondering what's it like being with someone who you feel like loves you and you love them? If im going through anything im usually alone in all fairness

I’m sorry that your partner treats you this way. Someone saying you are a nag and do his head in, is likely just a selfish twat.

Being with your true love has none of that. At least for me. There is no conflict on that level. You want what’s best for them and they want what’s best for you. You enjoy each others company and actively want to spend time with them. You feel more for them than you did when you first met them, both physically and emotionally -even as the years and even decades go by.

You deserve that, despite maybe not believing you do because your self worth has taken a hit.

That sounds lovely and what id like

I wont lie a big factor keeping me staying is I just dont want to share my kids or have a custody arrangement. I think hed be horrid and play on my worries and ignore me if I tried to contact and check on them or speak to them etc

I get scared hed even just take them away somewhere and not tell me. He'd be awful to coparent with and even when j confided in my sister she agreed he would as she knows what hes like