Will it ever stop?

[LetsGoRoundAgainAgain]

I don't know how to write this without being outing or getting involved in conversations that won't be helpful.

I cannot get over an incident that happened 6 months ago. As a result I was accused of thing that were partly true but also significantly untrue. I never replied to the things that were said. There was no point.

However the words circle in my head every day. The replies I never gave circle in my head. It's clearly a mix of guilt as well as self defence but things don't seem to be diminishing with time.

I've started therapy but had to take a break as therapist is on mat leave.

I'm so desperate to move on.

It’s difficult to advise with such a vague post.
Could you say the things you wanted to now to give you closure?
Or find another therapist? If therapy was helpful, waiting for maternity leave to end doesn’t seem viable.

She comes back in October. I really don't want to explain everything to a new therapist. I just want it to stop though :-(

I'm sorry for being vague.

Do you mean could I say it to the person? No the window has closed for that..

What do you want from this post?
You either stay as you are and you keep feeling the same way.
Or do something proactive. Which you don’t seem keen on.
Your therapist will have provided cover options for her maternity leave. That I expect you’re choosing to ignore.
If you don’t help yourself, no one is going to do it for you.

No she talked me through the options, she didn't recommend anyone but said she could, I'm not choosing to ignore it I just had a good relationship with her..DH and I talked it over and DH commented that id found it pretty emotionally hard going bringing up a lot of stuff (childhood SA etc) and he was worried id find it too much to do it all again. I'm not choosing to ignore anything.
I'm terrified therapy won't help and I'll be stuck like this.