Human being not a Human doing

[GauntJudy]

I know this phrase is trite but at age nearly 50 its suddenly hit home for me.

For so long I've felt like I've failed if I've not been productive in my free time. But when I look at the shit that I interpreted as "productive" it was mostly extra work that I wasn't getting paid for, or some kind of self improvement that never bloomed into an improved me!

I'm learning how to just enjoy downtime even if it's just scrolling through dog videos, also watching TV which I haven't done for ages.

I wonder if it's cos of my age where I have probably reached the ceiling of my work potential, I'm idly working out retirement age rather than dream career, my DC is moving to secondary. It's quite a nice time

In my experience you get to an age where you realise that a lot of what humans do to fill their time is a pointless treadmill. Earning to spend, driving to the gym, working overtime to pay for stuff to update the house every other year.

When you see it it's impossible to unsee it and stepping of the treadmill is a blessed relief.