Im struggling to hold it together st the moment. I have always been looked upon to be the strong one in the family the one who has got it.all.toghetjer but I am struggling at the moment and dont know what to do. My dad had to have a serious operation a few weeks back he isdoing ok but stil not out of the woods. It really hit me how old he looked in hospital and upset me. My mother suffers with severe anxiety so on the day he was I hospital and weeks months leading up to it her anxiety just grew and grew. I had to hold it together to support my dad and her. Ishe doesnt srive so i have to take her to appointments ahopping etc . Then to cap it all last weekend I found a lump in my right breast got to see Dr on Monday and subsequently have been referred to breast clinic on 16 July for tests nd mammogram Can't fault the speed in which I was referred. What I am struggling is that I can't tell parents yet because it would tip them.over the edge. I had to tell my 17 year old and that was hardest thing to do even though I said it will be ok just tests and will deal with anything else after. I am absolutely bricking it trying to be positive but in the back of mind is that I wont see him become a man have a family etc. I know I shouldn't think like that but can't help it. Haven't got many close friends that I can confide in and part of me feels that I can't put this on them they have their own stuff to deal with. I am.tired of being the strong one just would be nIce to have someone say to hey how are you are you doing ok. .