Time to reset

[Itsnothealthy]

I need to pick myself up now. I have been on a proper downer . Because I came back to a shithole after my holiday. Because of my older kids. Normal people would get over it and get on with it. But im not normal. House work and keeping on top of it with all the other stuff I have /had going on. It Was so hard and I have really struggled. But after a really long time working on things , making my house better more tidy and manageable starting to feel better mentally and emotionally like I was finally getting somewhere i felt within the normal bracket not embarrassed.

Then I went on holiday came back to a shithole. It felt like the end if the world.i couldn't tell the older kids to sort it out because mentally I felt fucked and I just couldn't.

I spoke about it on here. As I often do. But I couldn't cope on here either so backed of talking about it because I couldn't do it mentally. So I just blocked it out.

Im not really looking on advhce in how to tidy up.

Im also not looking for the why do you post ? Why did you post the same/simlar things.

This post is really about how I feel mentally/emotionally.

Getting myself ready dust myself down try my best to let theses feelings go and pick myself up . And get sorted so me and the kids can feel better.. ready for the summer holidays.

Ds father has not seem them so much recently. Im really hoping its going to pick up again. I feel like I need the emptiness of the house.

Thank you for sharing this. It sounds like you’ve been carrying so much, and it’s completely valid to feel overwhelmed, exhausted, and upset. Coming back from what was probably a rare moment of peace and rest—your holiday—only to face chaos and mess at home must’ve felt like a punch in the gut. Especially when you've worked so hard to finally feel like you're in a better place mentally and emotionally.
You’re not weak, and you’re definitely not “not normal.” You’re a person with limits, feelings, and a heart that’s been trying really hard for a long time. It makes sense that this setback would hit hard, especially when it feels like the progress you made was just swept away. That kind of emotional whiplash can be brutal.
Blocking it out and retreating isn't failure—it’s self-preservation. You’ve been doing what you needed to do to keep going. And the fact that you’re even talking about picking yourself up again shows the strength that’s still in you, even if it doesn’t feel like it right now.
You deserve peace in your home. You deserve support from those around you. You deserve not to have to carry all this on your own.
One step at a time is more than enough. Just breathing today is enough. You’re not starting over—you’re continuing forward, with all the strength you’ve built up through everything you've already faced.
Be gentle with yourself. You're doing better than you think

Thank you for such a lovely reply. Thats really nice. And thank you for understanding where I am coming from. A reset is definitely needed . Its not a button that i have but im hoping over the next couple of days I will start changing . Im trying to give myself a time frame from now till the kids break up from school so the school holidays can start of with a good feeling.