I suspect my mother may have dementia. I live with her. She is doing so many bad and odd things. Like dumping my belongings. That's only one thing. I would have tea or coffee made and she will pick it up and throw that out too. There are just so many odd things and some of the most viliest and oddest temper tantrums that makes no sense. It's honestly extremely stressful.
I was working all of this week and I am in a place where work gives me some respite from home and I am throwing myself into work a lot. I do like work. However the past two weekends has been stressful too in that I was placed 'on call'. As in I was off but I had to be available as a just in case measure and as a back up. So I wasn't able to fully enjoy those weekends it get a full break.
I am really approaching a bad place now. With everything. Work can be ok and there has been some unforseeable circumstances in work and I will now likely have to work this weekend even though it wasn't planned from earlier this week.
However I had some plans made for Saturday. I have a hair appointment booked for Saturday. I had it booked for months and I would really like to still go to that.
I am in a very bad place at home with my mother and her moods are so incredibly intense. We are hosting some family currently and the family are great and independent and they are doing a lot for themselves. However my mother can't cope with them. She is acting in front of them but every time they have their backs turned or they go out, she is giving me earfuls if abuse and shouting and it's all about one of the family members. It's all about her son's wife. Who's a lovely respectful lady. My mother just can't cope with this change. It's my back and my ears and my head that is getting all of this.
I was going to take a bottle of wine into my hair appointment and after that I was going to find a pub for the evening. I know that might sound bad but I don't do that often. It's just I am in a very bad place. It's so so so stressful.
Now work is trying to get a hold of me for becoming live in for the whole weekend.
I am in a place where I really do need to escape from everything.
I see a lot of stuff at home that our visitors don't see. Like everything they go away my mother is snooping in their room. She is also eavedropping on their calls. Its nasty.