What's the most hinged thing your post partnum anxiety made you so

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Me - got rid of a bean bag because that's how that little baby in the nursery died.

Went back to nursery to collect toddler as worried I had bitten him and not realised (I hadn't done anything like that).

Had thoughts about being a possible sexual abuser.to my child, constant thoughts. I've not been abused myself or had any thoughts on that way, just worried I would.

Worried that when he was unable to roll, about two months old, than he Wasn't safe on the floor on the bathroom upstairs if I had to run to grab something. So I put up a baby stair gate at 2 months old.

Constantly waking in a panic wondering if baby is breathing.

Unhinged looking back and prenatal has discharged and wouldn't treat me

Obsessed over a tiny scratch on his face to the point I convinced myself he must have fallen off the bed and banged his head and wanted to take him to hospital as I must have somehow forgotten about it.. DH said it was like listening to a loop as I explained to him. I also worried about strange cars in the street and was concerned he would be grabbed from me in his pram when I did the shopping.

It’s scary not being able to trust your own brain. I think we just love them so much we get terrified about losing them.

Looking at a light in the sky (which turned out to be a plane, obviously). I was terrified that it was a UFO and we were being invaded. I’d recently read a book about alien abductions. That’s when I knew that I needed to get help.

I also developed horrendous health anxiety and even though I was completely exhausted, I’d drag myself out of bed between night feeds and stand in the corner of the room to stop myself from going to sleep, because I was convinced if I fell asleep I’d never wake up. I was literally inflicting a torture method upon myself, but I couldn’t see it. Very sad.

My heart breaks for PPA sufferers on here. To anyone affected, please talk about it to your friends/family/health visitor. It does get better. x

Oh wow perhaps my PPA was somewhat mild!

I asked doctor to check all her "bits" were correct and present as never had seen a baby before and wanted to make sure everything was ok.
Daft,looking back .

One week PP, crawled about after a night feed with my phone torch looking for next door’s cat hiding under the bed in case he had got in through our open bedroom window and would somehow be roaming round the house without me noticing and possibly get into DC’s cot in the night…