I gave birth last year 4 weeks early 1st baby so I assumed I was likely to come late and if early not 4 weeks early. Husband is self employed and had wound down his diary for when baby was due but not for 4 weeks prior to my due date. This caused me to be home alone with a new born from day one. He was coming home in between appointments but there wasn’t much of a gap. He feels so much guilt for not being able to be around and I still feel really upset by my post birth experience. I was really unwell caught an infection and had family who where useless at helping all my friends had husbands at home for weeks. My husband job was at an extremely busy time and he had booked in all the last minute stuff to be done had he moved or cancelled anything we would of lost out on half a years earnings which we couldn’t afford. I’ve spent the past 10 months going over how we could have done things differently and we couldn’t have he had to work and that’s that. The only thing we would do next time is employ some help for a few hours a week to help me post birth if the same happened. My post birth experience was horrible and I’m wondering would therapy help me get over this I also had a terrible birth but that I can deal with as it was out of my control. My husband and I have discussed it a few times but he feels awful and like he had no choice as finances are tight and we needed the money and couldn’t cancel clients at the very end of a long road for them.