What will I do

[Solpalady]

I wrote a post last night trying to explore what to do today. I wanted to pack a bag and leave home and check in somewhere.

This is because I live at home with my mother and she's in a major OCD and hostile mode. Some sort of phyoatic spell or something like a dementia. God only knows what. She is so incredibly intense. As soon as she's finished with breakfast she just goes bang and moving furniture and rearranging things and she spent over two hours in the small bathroom cke sing yesterday which was then followed by control freak demands. The place is not filthy.

She was no OCD when I was small.

Late last night a packed a bag with everything I would need - laptop, chargers, change of clothes. My plan was to go and check in somewhere.

Then this morning, it was lashing rain and I didn't want my belongings getting wet.

So I packed smaller for the day just to leave for the day and return home at night time.

I am so exhausted and I have a migraine now too.

I am out of the house. I am away without any stay over bag.

I am thinking about checking in without my gear. There is a lock shop nearby where I could buy a toothbrush.

What do you think?

I have nothing else with me. No change of clothes.

Or will I stay away all day and return at night time.

She's an old age bully and that's all she is.

Go home and get your bag? But this is only a short term solution. Surely you need to explore other options? Have you never lived independently?

I am nowhere near home to get a stay over bag

I did live away from home before.

I am so so so tired. My head is so sore. Exhaustion and stress.

How old are you? Are you able to move into your own place?

@Solpalady can you get the essentials (toothpaste/brush and deodorant) and find a hotel for a couple of nights? Just till you can catch up with sleep?

Why did you not just take a bag with you, your belongings wouldn't have got that wet!

How old are you? You really need to move out and live on your own. Has your mum been diagnosed with OCD (or any other MH conditions)?

I saw your thread yesterday and I thought your idea to go and spend a night away was a good one OP.

I think.m your indecision is a real result of you being worn down by your situation at home. It's really difficult to make decisions when people are stressed and depressed.

Perhaps you should go out for the rest of the day and find somewhere you can relax and try and think about your next move. Ultimately you need to find somewhere else to live so think about how you are going to achieve that.

If you dont have any one to talk to in real life you could always ring the Samaritans. You dont have to be suicidal to talk to them you know. And they can listen to you and provide emotional support.

When I saw the rain this morning, I changed my mind because my luggage bag was too big and I didn't want my electronics getting wet. So I decided to change my plans and pack only for a day trip away, returning tonight.

But now I am away and I just can't stomach going home.

Where would you go? How old are you?

Is a day trip going to have any impact at all?

this is all sounds like a very peculiar set up op

I'm not underage. Not a minor

If you have any money you could stay in a Premier Inn or Travel Lodge, stay with a friend or relative. You could contact the National Domestic Abuse helpline if she's abusive, for advice. Try spareroom.com for a shared house or phone the council housing department.

How did you get there? By bus? Where are you right now? A cafe?

I think I recall your other threads under a different name
You are in your fifties?

If it was dry this morning I would have brought my luggage bag with me.

I am in a cute little country town, sitting having some lunch.

I checked online and there's a few hotels nearby and they have some rooms available.

I am wondering, if I walk in of the street would they give me a better offer.

I have no idea what to do.

When I set off this morning it was raining and I was thinking it was going to be for the day. Just to get away.

I am just so so so so so so tired.

Your priority needs to be learning to drive and getting a place of your own

neither of which I suspect will ever happen

Enjoy your night away and will await the next thread

Wrong, wrong, wrong, wrong.

You make this sound like as if I want to have a party or social night away.

I am seeking respite from crazy and hostility.

But op you don’t drive and you don’t seem to have any intention whatsoever of moving out

I do recall your other threads. The two of you are so tightly enmeshed in one another’s lives it’s poisonous.

You are in your fifties op… either wait until she conks in or woman up and move out

It sounds like you need to make real steps to move out for good. Is this a possibility? One night away may help you to think straight. Do you have the income to live independently?

Look into getting your mum some adult social care.

Phone council for OOH emergency housing

Oh come on, let’s be realistic here

The above post was meant to be its own post. Not sure why it appeared on the bottom of this one. I have reported it.