I can’t anymore

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I’m tired. I’ve tried my best. I don’t know who to talk to. I’ve been here before and talked down by GP, 999. I’m seeing an RMN on Friday. I don’t know how to get through until then.

I’m here if you to chat, tell me what’s wrong, Friday will soon come around.

What’s the matter? Get yourself a glass of water or a cuppa, deep breaths.

I'm really sorry you feel this way just now. Being so unwell is very difficult and just writing here tells me you're stronger than you know. I probably can't make it better, but I have been where you are and I will listen if you want to talk.
The one thing amongst all of the platitudes that stuck with me was 'you've been ill before (flu, measles whatever) and you got better. You can get better from this illness too.
Hold on tight, you matter x

I’ve been given an eviction notice on my house. No reason given. Family keep saying I can buy somewhere but I’ve been so stupid I’m overdrawn and in debt. I can’t cope with packing, I’ve moved house 8 times in ten years for various reasons and I was just starting to feel settled here. I can’t bear the thought of going again. I’ve got cptsd and keep having panic attacks every time I try to start packing again.

I can’t even think about building up a good relationship with the nurse because if I have to move all over again what’s the point

How do I tell my family I’m in debt because I’m so anxious I order taxis so I don’t have a panic attack walking to work

Money is not worth what you're considering. The companies you owe money to, will survive, whether they get their money back or not. They are heartless entities.
I am so sorry about the eviction notice, insecure housing is incredibly stressful and will cause more anxiety. Would it be possible to move in with family to give yourself time to think straight? Do you have one person in your family you can talk to and be completely honest with?

Be honest with your family, they may offer for you to stay if needs be, apply to the council, rental with a family member being a guarantor. Speak to the bank to come up with a debt management plan. I know it’s stressful but you’ve done it before and you can do it again, it won’t always be a struggle, just remember that.

No wonder you feel as if the ground is shifting beneath you because it is.

But this is now and your future may well be much better.

Hold on.

How are you OP?