My manager has asked if I would like to do some KIT days. Pre-maternity leave, I expressed a really keen interest in doing some and we (manager and I) always said we would arrange between us closer the time. At the time, I naively thought I would be ready to do them from about now. My baby is 7 months old and I am still nowhere near ready to be apart for a whole day. The logistics would not work either as I am EBF and baby hasn’t taken to weaning much yet. I see other 7 month olds eating loads whereas for us, nothing substantial is getting eaten.
I would be doing them from August onwards after SMP stops. Since this is only eight weeks away I need to pencil them in and be reliable about it. The money would be nice and make things easier, but as I say right now I cannot imagine being apart for more than a couple of hours and don’t know whether this is going to change in two months.
I actually return to work 2 days a week from October and that feels hard enough but I have some confidence that at almost 12 months, reliance on BF will be less and the solids journey will be more underway.
Should I book them and suck it up / express and get over the separation, or is it not worth it? I’ve literally only pumped once and that was in the first couple weeks PP. I wouldn’t know where to begin. I don’t even want to introduce a bottle at this stage. Like I say though, the money would be ideal. Do you think I’ll feel any differently in two months vs now? Everyone said it would get easier to be apart from my baby in time but that’s not my experience yet because baby still seems tiny. Husband has offered to work more overtime instead to replace the money I would’ve earned by doing them but that doesn’t feel fair to me