I can’t imagine how people who have chatter going on in their minds even think!
(yes I know that makes no sense!)
My mind is quiet, no internal monologue.
I need this silence to think, as I don’t generally think using words. I might use words if I’m remembering a conversation or planning what I want to say, and sometimes I talk to myself in my head in a parental sort of way if I am cross or need to calm down about something or when problem solving.
But otherwise, it’s all quiet. The best way I can explain the way I think is that I think in ‘notions’. Thoughts just exist to me and take shape without being put together with words. I suppose I’m quite visual and I experience thoughts as pictures, but also as feelings and… well, ‘notions’ is the best word I can find.
I’ve found that CBT doesn’t really make sense to me for me for this reason, as I can’t really pinpoint my thoughts in the way that is expected, and thoughts and feelings can get quite intertwined.
My sister has the problem that she can’t stop thinking. It sounds exhausting to me, as her kind of thinking is something I actively choose to do, it’s not the default. Not being able to stop thinking feels to me like not being able to stop running!
I’m sure this is why I always drop off to sleep instantly.