Emotional reminiscing on lead up to first birthday

[Bobbieiris]

It’s my twin daughters first birthday in two months time and today I’ve had such a weird feeling, kind of happy and sad at the same time. I keep thinking ‘this time last year I bought the pram’ or ‘this time last year it was beautiful weather and I was enjoying being pregnant’.
the girls were premature and spent their first 10 weeks in hospital…NICU then SCBU. It was the hardest experience of my life and looking back I wasn’t doing well mentally at all. Now when I look back it’s as if it never happened and it was all just a dream….its so strange!!
anyone else experienced a strange feeling in the lead up to a first birthday. It feels so special, sad, happy and emotional!

Yes, I don't think our babies first birthdays should be about them at all really, they don't understand the concept at 1 anyway. But it's hugely emotional for the mum. I did just the same - at 7am the day before I was thinking oh this is when I realised I was in labour, at lunchtime I thought, this is when I phoned DH and told him to come home from work, at 8pm, this was when the nice midwife shared her olives with me... Then later this was when the shit hit the fan... Can we start a movement to recognise mums and their birth experiences on the 1st birthday instead, at least a little bit?

My DD is about to turn 14 soon, the emotional side of things does all get easier as the years go by and her birthday has been entirely about her for years.

Our DD will be 4 later in the year and I do this all the time still. We have a 7 month old too now and seeing her developing has really hit home that our oldest isn’t a baby any more. It’s just so happy and sad at the same time watching them grow 😅😍

Write down things they say and do in a diary my boy is two and I have forgotten so many things but he says cute stuff every day I wish I remembers it all

I'm not a big fan of the small baby stage and don't miss it at all so the 1st birthdays, especially with my twins was a ''thank god that is over with'' to be honest.

@PictureCandleStick I definitely agree that the first birthday should be all about the mums! I feel like their first birthday is going to be so strange for me!
@Unexpectedlysinglemum thats such a lovely idea, I’ll have to do that :)
I really miss the newborn stage :( I love seeing them grow and change but there’s nothing like newborn cuddles! I feel like the twins birth happened so fast and I was in so much shock, it’s almost as if it was just a dream. Also so strange how the year has flown by but when I look back to the first few months it feels like a lifetime ago!