I feel this is going to sound extremely weird/ridiculous/bizarre but I’m feeling so depressed and upset.
there’s a lovely local cafe i go to. The owner runs it himself and works very very hard. I used to go in all the time, he let me work there, and I would be in pretty much every day, sometimes going in a couple times as it’s right around the corner from where I live. He’s a really kind, generous man, let’s you use the WiFi, let’s people sit for hours. It’s small but he does struggle with footfall and he used to be pleased i would sit there as it gave him company and was also more likely others would come in.
he has stiff competition from three other coffee shops on the road, including one chain. I’ve been going there for three years. But in the last 6 months, I’ve probably been about 12 times I would say. And that’s because I used to find that two separate women I didn’t like would deliberately walk past every day and then come in to chat to me and I just really disliked them, they would never get the hint that I wanted to be left alone.
my partner did say he was probably struggling for business but I didn’t think too much of it as he’s been there a few years.
I just found out that he shut for good yesterday and I feel devastated. I know that sounds extreme but I just spent most of the morning crying. I feel so sad that I barely went in and instead spent money at other places. He was local, much cheaper and such a decent person. I also feel really sad as he is leaving in two days to go back to his home country.
I will really miss him, that shop gave me such a reassuring comforting presence. I used to wave to him every day when I was going or leaving home and now I just feel so upset.
I know it sounds extreme but I actually felt really shaken and upset and haven’t been able to do any work today.