I’ve applied for a role as a whole time firefighter, got through the first two rounds of assessment and was sent a day for my bleep test. From the day of the email to the day I have to do it was 3 weeks- now it’s a week and a half. I’ve had practice runs but can’t seem to get past level 6 and I need to get to 8.8. I’m 39, I have three children and I work until 2 a.m. four nights a week, so my spare time not spent working or looking after my children is spent sleeping, and even then I’m not getting anywhere near enough sleep and I’m permanently exhausted. I simply don't have the time for loads of training, going to the gym etc. I don’t know how on earth I’m ever going to manage to reach that level, when doing any training means depriving myself of sleep which I need so badly. Do I just give up and accept that it won’t happen? I’m so unhappy with my life as it is now and was really keen on this, but I just don’t see how I’m going to get there.