What do you suffer with or battle with

[anxietyalday]

Thought id start a thread on what some of us have to live with or battle with every day.
And not everyone would know if they looked at us.
I suffer with anxiety that makes me agoraphobic.
PTSD.
Server migraines with all the awful symptoms that make me forget everything.
And intrusive thoughts.
But if anyone spoke to me they would never know i had any of the above problems.
I also dont see numbers and letters like others do i have to really try hard.
When im on mumsnet it takes me ages to type because i always get called out on my gramma.

I do get a bit ticked off sometimes when i get a random person or a family member that says oh i have this and that problem but i dont see it in them.
I know we all cope in different ways but sometimes i do think do you really have that if you know what i mean.

Oh gawd, pity party incoming 🤣 apologies in advance!

I've got stage 3 kidney disease, copd, liver disease, heart failure, chronic pain, staggeringly high blood pressure, pcos, psoriasis, eczema, assorted minor things, I currently take 16 pills a day, it's been higher. I've also got bowel disease and never leave the house because I can't control my bowels. I wasn't going to include that but what the hell.

I have an etsy shop and my sales have tanked and I'm 2 months away from destitution if it doesn't pick up.

My sons are in their 20s. They are both disabled. My eldest son has cripplingly low self esteem and my younger son is very unpredictable and has violent outbursts and threatens to kill me. He has attacked me more than once. I can't get anywhere to take him for respite that the la will pay for and there's no way on earth I can pay for the private high security places that could manage him.

My husband has left the country after being promised he will make more than enough to take care of everything but he hasn't made a penny yet (not his fault, just circumstances) he can't afford a ticket back so he's stuck there. We were promised so much and it's all turned to shit yet again.

My mum is living in a house with no heating or hot water, no working loo, a roof that is about to collapse and black mould everywhere and I can't help her and she refuses to ask social services or any organisation for help. She is showing the early signs of dementia but we have to wait until she clearly no longer has capacity before we can step in. I've tried but social services were very clear that at the moment they cannot and will not act against her will.

I struggle with my mental health and I can't tell you what I bought or what i planned to do with it or my post will be deleted but long story short it was not fit for purpose and companies won't sell the item that is fit for purpose to residential properties, only companies with reason to have it. I also had a limited window which has now passed and another one won't open until December. (Someone else with my sons)

So I just have to wait and hope my heart finally gives out or I have a catastrophic stroke then my husband can borrow money to take our sons to his home country and they can live there and family can take care of our sons after he's dead.
So yeah.
Life is shit really.
🤷‍♀️

Its the same with me I am always marked as being friendly amiable and understanding but little do they know
I have a long history of abuse so suffer PTSD non epileptic seizures, bad panic attacks, depression, anxiety
fibromyalgia which gives me hell in my joints
a bad shoulder which keeps popping out
dodgy hips
plantar fascilitis in both feet

@IncompleteSenten I really like your user name.

I know it's not much help but I hope you're aware of people you can talk to:

In the UK, a range of mental health support services are available, including crisis lines, online resources, and local support groups. If you need immediate help, call 111 or visit the NHS 111 website, or dial 999 for an emergency. Other resources include the 24-hour mental health crisis line (020 3317 6333), Samaritans (116 123), and the Mental Health Foundation