I finally got therapy…

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I fled DV last year and turned to a DV service who referred me for therapy. My first session is today. I think I’ll just be going over my contract but I’m feeling nervous and vulnerable. I have deep rooted issues and have witnessed&suffered abuse (mentally and emotionally) growing up. So im not sure what to expect. I don’t even know if I’ll be able to be helped but I’m thankful for this opportunity in being referred…

Well done for getting to this point.

I've done quite a lot of first sessions (never managed to stick with it). I find they do a bit of getting to know you and a general sketch of what the issues are. The time tends to fly, so that's normally pretty much everything for the first day. Maybe a bit of chat about a subject if it's bothering you right then.

It shouldn't be too hectic. Good luck!

Good Luck OP, i too am seriously thinking about going for therapy. A whole host of issues including a chaotic and unstable childhood with violence and all the problems that have arose from it.

I decided I need a clinical pychologist and have found one near me (well 15 mins away by car). It costs £130 for 50 mins which I have to admit has made me pause.

Then I think after a lifetime of problems I owe it to myself to go and try and get myself sorted. I'm in my fifties now but didn't have the understanding before nor the time nor money.

I've almost booked him twice and then chickened out.

I'm pretty sure though I am going to go through with it. I am just so sad at the amount of things I have messed up due to having a disorganised attachment style (fearful avoidant).

Good luck with yours. I did try going once before (on the demand of partner who was threatening to end relationship) but it doesnt work if you are going for someone else. You have to do it for yourself when you are ready.

Also the therapist I tried before wasn't particularly helpful. So I'm hoping this guy who is more qualified and more expensive will be better.

A secure and stable childhood is such a huge head start for children. I didn't really realise until my forties how disadvantaged I was because of mine.

Take your time, you have a lot to unpack.