Change of username because outing to anyone who knows me.
I am a first time mum, in my mid 20s, currently on mat leave and due back later this year.
I work in the public sector currently in a job that I mostly enjoy. The salary is good for the role it is and the flexibility I get back. Things have changed now however and my priorities are at home. I really don’t want to return after maternity leave and can’t bear the thought of leaving my baby. If I had the sort of job that I could step back into then my decision would be easier to make. The issue is, if I left then it would be hard to get back into my role as I got there on experience and interview rather than qualifications. I was partway through my degree when the pandemic hit and stupidly only completed it to Level 5 (Diploma of HE). I can pick this back up as it is distance learning but I am well aware that when I return to work, there will be not enough hours spare in the week as I’ll want to spend it all with my girl.
I am at such a crossroads. I could forget the rest of the degree and stay in my current job forever but wages are stagnating in the public sector and I don’t want to limit myself in the future because things can change. I could do my degree and be a SAHM for a while, but then it’s stepping out the game and my degree might never be needed anyway. I just feel I need it in the bank but it’s going to be very hard to do it when I RTW, because all I’m going to want to do is spend my spare time with my daughter.
DH will support anything I want to do but works long hours himself. We can’t afford for me to be totally a SAHM for very long, and I want a sense of purpose from a career too but maybe there would be an easier time to pick up the last year of my degree than now? What do you think? Sorry it’s rambling!