For years my life has been a bit of a mess. I have talked about it alot on here. Thinking back there's been . My eviction/housing, dds dv situations/social services/aggressiveness and violence from my own ds/when ds tried to end his life. How awful my house was. There's probably other stuff to . But its gone on for years.
Things are much better now. I don't allow myself to get sucked into things. I'm learning to say no and put down boundaries when I feel like people are taking the piss. I'm keeping the house much better. Although I have my bad days. The journey to school is so much less stressful now that dd has moved.
The thing is things are much better but I'm always waiting for something to go wrong , I feel like im looking over my shoulder but I have no reason for it . I keep thinking something bad is going to happen.