Just thinking about some of the truly insane things myself and some of my friends did/thought at that age. I’m sure I’ll get judgement for this - and I probably wouldn’t actually have done it, and I would of course never, ever even consider anything like this now, but I guess it just goes to show how different teenage brains are to adult brains (or maybe it’s just me!…we’ll see)
I was relentlessly bullied by this one girl in my year. I was 13/14. I wasn’t an easy target, she was actually part of my group of friends, none of my other friends ever stood up for me but I usually stood up for myself, often leading to nearly getting into fights etc. but she always seemed to get the upper hand, probably cos she was better with words and quick witted put downs. She made my life hell for years, often getting her friends I didn’t know to harass me with constant creepy phone calls and abusive texts with death threats etc. Kids can be so awful. Anyway one day I decided I’d had enough, and as I hung round with a pretty dodgy crowd I knew of some pretty shady people. I decided I’d “hire” one of them to kill her, started saving up 50 quid (as clearly I thought that’d be all it’d take) and intended to ask around for someone to do it! I never got the nerve to actually ask anyone but I really convinced myself I was going to. It kinda scares me to look back on how insane I was! I’m sure many people will say maybe I really was insane and this is not normal for anyone at any age. But I’m curious- as this is an anonymous platform, to hear some of the truly awful things you did/planned to do as a teen.