Finish Uni in 2 weeks and…

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I’m crippled with fear of failure. Can’t sleep, can’t function. I’ve convinced myself someone like me can’t do it. I’ve done well so far. I caught an infection (exposure to a substance in work) and spent so much of this year ill. Fell behind. I have a very slim margin to gain a degree with honours. I’m so convinced I’m a failure I want to give up.
I grew up in rather poor conditions all round but worked from age 12 (Saturday job). Went full time at 16, ploughed away and long story short, had my mortgage paid off by 39 when my DD was 9. My trade (blue collar thing) paid well and I’m in management now but the degree puts me into a role with pay I never thought possible. I feel like a damn fraud and like I can’t finish. Has anyone else had this imposter syndrome type feeling and beat it? How do you push past it and cross the finish line?

You sound brilliant. It's not far to go, make a calendar of small steps each day.

You will do this.

Thank you. Not brilliant, just didn’t want to live like my mother did (alcohol issues, house full of random men. Stuff happened) and wanted out. I feel like giving up. The illness I had apparently can leave you a bit brain fogged and depressed so I don’t know if I’m genuinely feeling like giving up or my head is torturing me. Thank you for your message ❤️

Have you put a special consideration application to university given your illness? If not please do look into it.

Yes I did that. They said it will be taken into consideration (I had evidence of it). I wish I could go into detail but obviously my employer is liable and it’s a very unusual situation. It doesn’t happen nowadays as a rule but sheer bad luck and money saving by the company had corners cut and well, I was unlucky.

If you don't feel well enough for your finals you could get a medical note and ask to delay and take them later as a first attempt later on. I did this, nd took my finals in September and then also had special consideration due to having had a prolonged period of sickness.

I want to finish. I had a “notifiable” infection due to negligence and there is a lot going on in the background, health authority involved. I’m very lucky I’m physically very fit (long term athlete) and I was in good shape to fight. I’m still employed there as I don’t want to add to my load atm which uni finishing by leaving and starting over. I have taken the advice and spoken to my tutor today (not impressed by a Saturday call!) and the wheels are turning now. Thank you all 🙏🏻