My last grandparent has died and I am so so sad

[SusanSHelit]

Just as the thread title says. My very dear granny. Me, my mum and my two aunts were with her when she breathed her last. The pain etched on her face has finally melted away.

She died at home, and we all had a part in looking after her. I am the oldest cousin, and my youngest cousin stayed with me beside her until the palliative nurses came to do last offices. They were very good and came quickly.

But she was my last grandparent, we had such a lovely bond. She was so special, and now I will get to taste her incredible food, hear her cheeky laugh or hear her cheerful singing while she potters about again.

We are all staying in her house tonight. Everyone else has gone to bed and I'm alone for the first time.

It has hit me like a ton of bricks. 63 years she lived and loved in this house and now it's over

I'm not sure what I want from this but thank you to anyone who has read this far

Condolences. I only knew, slightly, one grandparent. Just think you had a wonderful time with her and she lived a good life.

Bless you. I felt like this when my grandparents passed.
now I can look back and remember with fondness and gratitude.

Ahh I'm so sorry to hear this OP

You'll be feeling a whole mix of emotions right now but once your head is straight again, try to concentrate on the love and joy you brought to each other's lives.

It sounds as though you were very lucky to have each other

It's a strange feeling when it's the last one. I hope you cherish those memories. Condolences on your loss.

I hear you, I lost my lovely Nanny almost 5 years ago now, was there when she passed and we were so close. Her only child, my mum, died fifteen years ago.

It was very hard but I have so many happy memories of them both now. It will take some time to reach that space.

Oh it's so sad. I would say you are lucky as I only ever knew one of my grandparents for a short time. Fell blessed you had her love but also aow yourself to be sad in the loss. 💐

You are blessed to have grandparents and your lovely memories. Mine were all gone by the time I was born so I have never had a granny or grandad. I am sorry for your loss ❤️

Sending so much love to you right now. So lovely that you helped look after her. It must have been a real shock to see her take her last breath but you were with her right up until the end.
My lovely granny died almost ten years ago. Absolute amazing lady, and I think of her everyday.
We are blessed to have known such amazing women x

It's pretty horrible isn't it.

If it's any consolation she knew that she was loved and had a good life.

Deepest condolences OP it's very sad when you lose your last grandparent. My last one died in 2011 and I still miss her. I only had 2 grandparents as my df was an orphan. Her last sibling died last year and now that generation has gone.

So much sympathy for you, it must have hit you hard.

I am another whose "last" grandparent died when I was sixteen. (I technically had another GM but she had withdrawn from her GC and DIL when my dad died, so we didn't know her.) It sounds like you had lovely relationships with your grandparents, you are very lucky. It won't feel that way now while your grief is at its strongest, but one day you'll be able to relive some of your memories and the anguish will be less.

When we have good memories of people and can remember many occasions with them, they live on in our hearts. They are not gone completely while you remember them with love.