just thought I’d let it out on here cos it’s not like ive got anyone to talk to really & there’s some really nice kind people on here. Im stuck- every single day i just want to vanish from life my life isn’t worth living anymore. I was abused as a kid and constantly called waste of space now it’s what my brain believes as an adult. I don’t bother talking to people anymore or friends because everyone’s better without me even my family
it really doesn’t feel worth it anymore- cost of living is extortionate, people are just knobs and nasty for no proportionate reason. I burst out crying today because I’m so mixed up. My on&off ex of years (it’s very complicated) reached out to me a few weekends ago hes never moved on from me & messed with my head & I’ve been mentally emotionally tortured since. I miss and love him still but he only wants to know me on a weekend when I get a random text or phone call. Im never going to have love with someone, have a daughter, im just going to be this vulnerable shell forever. Just keep crying
i only have one friend
I miss him so much