emetophobia, help!!!

[autumngirl714]

So I have a servere case of emetophobia.
I've had counciling, CBT therapy and EDMR therpay. I've read the books and listened to the podcasts.... but in the trenches of early years parenting I feel like it's worse then it's ever been!

Today I took my child to an indoor play event. It was in a really large sports hall.
10 minutes in and my son was playing in the ball pool next to a wall. He's been on a couple of mins and I turn to my left and a child has thrown up all over the floor. I tried to get my son out the pit but it took a few mins! We didn't leave but avoided the area. I saw them cleaning it up but it wasn't exactly cordoned off. And I expect it was anti bacterial spray not bleach used!!!

I'm now freaking out.
Did I make a mistake not leaving?!
Would you be freaking out too?
I wish I didn't have this phobia, it's dabilitating for me. I'm proud that I didn't scoop my child up and have him miss out because of my phobia, but now I'm stressing that I've just assigned us to a sickness bug :(

Can anyone help my mind!

You stayed, you don’t leave. That’s important and you should be proud and give yourself a pat on the back for staying at the event. As for whether you will pick up a bug - who knows? You have to learn to live with uncertainty. Seeking reassurance (to try and obtain certainty) from others here or in real life won’t ultimately help you. You can’t take on the responsibility for managing away the threat of illness (is it health anxiety, contamination generally or fear of vomiting or vomit?). If you get sick or your DC get sick you will cope. You can cope. You already do cope (even though it’s hard). 💐

@YouOKHun thank you for such a kind and understanding reply!
I really appreciate it ❤️